It’s funny how our heat tolerance is so relative. Even though yesterday’s meltdown was largely due to me being cold, last night I thought I might spontaneously combust because I was hot sleeping in a bed without near the amount of covers that we sleep with every night. 68° when I killed the HVAC did not get it cool enough. Wesley forgot what an epic heater I am to lay next to because we sleep on cots across the tent from each other now. The hotel room that I chose for us last night I knew wasn’t great but it wasn’t horrible from a mold perspective. Part of what I’ve been so frustrated with lately is the constant cyanobacteria reaction and not feeling well from that, but because I’m not in a ton of buildings, I’m not realizing that my mold reactivity has gone down until last night. I felt perfectly fine after sleeping in that hotel room, my energy was good, and my memory wasn’t broken today.
We got all of the essentials at Walmart last night, so this morning we drove by to see if there was a line, which there was. We skipped getting a new tent in case this one dies and are hoping that this one lasts until the new one comes. We stopped by my cousins house to pick up some mail and our license plate. Our temporary plate has only been expired for 13 days so it’s good that we finally got around that. We stopped at IHOP for breakfast and then went to Lowe’s and grabbed a freezer for Jim and Welda and a little torch lighter to see if one last attempt might get this Mr. heater to light. It’s wasn’t near so windy in Albuquerque or Los Lunas, but even at home, it was windy but not high gusts. We walked around the pasture (we saw a herd of 20-25 antelope- I think) and got our beds reassembled. It’s now in the 30’s and I’m comfortable snuggled up on my cot.
I am rejoicing that my tolerance to mold exposure is growing as I get up the power curve. Ana Harris explained this really well so in going to share her words:
l have limitations. Instead of having to budget energy, I have to budget toxic mold exposures and “bad” city air exposures.
I like to think of it like a bank. When I spend a lot of time in really pristine air, away from civilization, I am saving money in the bank. When I go into the city (some cities are worse than others) or visit a moldy building etc. I am spending that money. If I have a lot of money in the bank, I can spend it and maintain my health. But… if I spend too much, too fast (without replenishing the savings) I can find myself in a really bad place. I don’t know why it works this way, but this is just how it is for me and for countless other patients I know who have achieved remission though avoiding mold.
The moon is super bright tonight. Full moons camping are pretty cool. The blackout tent does come in handy on these nights bc the moon is so bright. There’s supposed to be a lunar eclipse tonight. I looked up the times and decided at that point temps will be in the low to mid 20’s and I don’t want to get up in the very early, freezing morning to see it, even though it would be cool. I tried taking a picture of the moon, but it was so bad I just have to enjoy my memory. I’m sorry for the discouraging blog post yesterday, and thank you for praying! It’s a much better day!
Good to hear you had a better day and are feeling better. How is Wesley doing?
It was a rough couple of days. Lots of lessons learned. The biggest lesson has been to refocus on surviving, then serving Laura, and then worrying about what I want. I was really looking forward to working but have recognized the need to put that on hold while we work out issues with our setup. I got so frustrated with things the day before Laura’s bad day that I was totally raged out. Refocusing helped a lot and I had a pretty good day while Laura had her meltdown.
Wish there was an easier solution to your and Laura’s mold problems. Take care !